As I go through a major transition in my life..letting go of what was, to stepping into what is ahead, I find my emotions swinging, sometimes violently, back and forth, from absolute certainly and excitement about what lies ahead, to absolute uncertainty and terror at the thought of letting go of what was..
Today I find myself swinging in the middle-space.. and I am afraid to let go.
So I laid my body down to rest and read in order to nurture myself through the fear and sadness and hopefully alleviate the anxiety of it all.
Then I opened my book "The Yamas & Niyamas - Exploring Yoga's Ethical Practice".
I opened to this tenant:
Ishvara Pranidhana, a sanskrit word for surrender.
It's one of the 10 Ethical practices of the yogi..or anyone who is connected to their spiritual self.
This is the message that was given to me.
How comforting to know that when we honor ourselves, and listen to our needs of self-care, the Universe always speaks.
Do I feel nurtured? You bet. Did my sadness and anxiety go away? Yes, for the moment. And I remember that I am not my emotions or thoughts, and I choose which thoughts and emotions to dwell in.
I choose to surrender, to trust, and to above all else, love. This brings me peace and balance. Any other choose is a disservice to my soul.