As I go through a major transition in my life..letting go of what was, to stepping into what is ahead, I find my emotions swinging, sometimes violently, back and forth, from absolute certainly and excitement about what lies ahead, to absolute uncertainty and terror at the thought of letting go of what was..
Today I find myself swinging in the middle-space.. and I am afraid to let go.
So I laid my body down to rest and read in order to nurture myself through the fear and sadness and hopefully alleviate the anxiety of it all.
Then I opened my book "The Yamas & Niyamas - Exploring Yoga's Ethical Practice".
I opened to this tenant:
Ishvara Pranidhana, a sanskrit word for surrender.
It's one of the ten Ethical practices of the yogi..or anyone who is connected to their spiritual self.
This is the message that was given to me:
"jump into your life with your whole heart, trusting that you will fly!"
How comforting to know that when we honor ourselves, and listen to our needs of self-care, the Universe always speaks.
Do I feel nurtured? You bet. Did my sadness and anxiety go away? Yes, for the moment. And I remember that I am not my emotions or thoughts, and I choose which thoughts and emotions to dwell in.
I choose to surrender, to trust, and to above all else, love. This brings me peace and balance. Any other choose is a disservice to my soul.
During my 18 years as a wellness coach and trainer I noticed that if clients' lives were out of balance, chances were slim that their fitness goals would be reached. Life is less segmented than we think. Everything is connected and has influence over all the other areas. In order to move forward towards any goal we set for ourselves we should take a look to see if there are "undone" things in our life, or places we feel out of balance.
Here are a list of some of the things that may be holding you back:
I use the "The Wheel of Life" worksheet with my clients to find where there may be lack or want. It is a simple exercise to see the areas of your life that are out of balance. The goal is not to get all 10's on the wheel, the goal is to have a round wheel. If you find your wheel is not even close to round, this may be why you can not get to where you want to be. It's hard to travel with square wheels! Fill out the Wheel of Life and start to fine tune your ride.
If you're on a bumpy road and would like some help creating a smoother ride to your goals, sign up for a 30-min consultation with me.
Today I embarked on a journey..a journey into the unknown. I was on a quest for self-enlightenment, peace of mind, and ease of pain.
This was my first time venturing into the state of near zero gravity and complete darkness. For a whole hour I felt like an astronaut cut loose from the space station, floating into the cosmos.
As I stepped into the floating pod, it was like entering an alien capsule. Naked and stripped of my senses, no light, no sound, I had a liberating feeling of leaving the earth and all the noise behind...even though I was still on ground zero and never really blasted off.
Time in the floating pod seemed to stand still or not even exist as I had no reference to tell how much had passed. And it didn't matter.
Nothing to see or do. I was left with just myself and my thoughts.
And one thought that definitely crossed my mind was "I wonder what this would be like stoned?".. I will leave that for another trip.
I soon focused in on my breath and how breathing in made me rise just ever so slightly up, and breathing out, sink ever so slightly down. The feel of the waterline along my body provided yet another focal point in a world where there were few.
It was meditation in its purest form, at least for me. There are many ways to go into yourself and quiet the mind. I have a daily practice of breath work, yoga, and meditating, but the sensory depravation float tank took it to a whole new level.
I left feeling rejuvenated, calm, and yes, my aches from yesterdays workout where non-existent. Did I experience self-enlightenment? No, not quite. But it definitely did help quiet my monkey mind of unproductive thoughts bouncing around my head.
Will I do it again? That's a definite yes. The experience was so new, that it took me awhile to settle into it. I imagine the second and third time will start to feel like second nature to enter into this weird and wonderful world of weightlessness and darkness.
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